Emerging author Penny Walker reflects on the outcome of her Kindle Scout campaign.
Yesterday was the day I hoped would not come. I received a very nice letter from Kindle thanking me for my participation in the Kindle Scout Program, but saying that Remission had not been selected for publication.
I can’t say that it doesn’t smart, because it does. Today, having slept on it, writing a post about it seems like the best way to pick myself up and dust myself off.
So where am I? I had hoped that they would take it for several reasons. Obviously I was after the independent recognition and also hoped to avoid a very public ‘fail’. Another thing I wanted was for someone else to make a decision on the monetary worth of my work. I spent most of yesterday fretting about this.
A night’s sleep and a coffee with two dear friends who just sat and listened has allowed me to sort out how I feel. I am so good at not taking myself into account that my focus yesterday on what price to set was being driven by the feeling that I owe it to the people who took the time to vote for it, to make it available for them to read.
Never mind that to me, this would represent a capitulation. My work is worth more than 99c. Consider this too: if it went out at that price and still only sold 30 copies, what would that do for my self worth? I think this is a real possibility, as when I see books advertised for such low prices, I tend to ignore them because of the price. To the average reader, cost is an indicator of quality.
I don’t believe that it’s true that self-publishing is the preserve solely of those who can’t write. However, I do know, having read numerous articles about the subject, that this is a widely held perception.
So ironically my blog entitled A Self-Publishing Journey is going to end with my decision not to self-publish.
It is not for me. Call it snobbery, or arrogance, but I have to value myself and my work if I ever expect others to do the same.
- Before you even start, consider what you want out of the experience.
- Be prepared for an emotional ride for a month or more.
- Decide if you are emotionally resilient enough to put yourself and your work out there so publicly.
- Think about how you’ll handle the outcome.